♡ xokisstine ♡: life

Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Okay, I did not realize it has already been about 3 months since I last posted.

I really do apologize once again for the hiatus. As I have mentioned, I got a job last March and it's was has kept me really busy, sorry! T-T

Anyway, I'm back, and I've got a lot on my mind so I decided to just make a comeback post about it.

Hello~ so here I am in front of my laptop in the dark at 3AM with my headphones on with K-Pop on shuffle typing this blog post instead of sleeping. Oh, Kristine.

Before heading on to the topic, I miss vlogging! I actually have quite a handful of people asking me to upload another vlog and yeah, I will soon. I just kinda got lazy especially after my bro's cam's LCD started to show a black screen whenever I flip it to the front and vlogging without seeing yourself is kinda hard since you don't know if you actually are getting yourself into the frame. Anyway...

This post is about how I lost weight, how I want to lose weight, how I gain weight, and basically all the stuff relating to diet. I type this post while eating a chocolate chip cookie. How ironic, huh?

Hello~ if you have been following me on my SNS, you probably know that last Tuesday (Oct. 21) I celebrated my birthday and officially entered my 20s! I am now proud to say that I have been living and breathing for 2 decades! Ah~ I don't know what's coming for me now that I am 20 years old but I do hope better things will come knocking on my door! I'm guessing that at this age I should have a career and slowly walk through the road of success. I guess this is the time where I should start looking for a stable job to be able to support my family and have enough to start a family in the future. (Ah, Kristine, you just turned 20 and you don't even have a boyfriend yet you are already thinking about your future family...)

Anyway! Lemme share you what happened and what's new before, during, and after my birthday!

I'm a stupid girl when it comes to love. We've all been stupid in love at one point. It's just that I feel that I'm still to naive when it comes to love. I still make mistakes such as confessing too early on, or even showing my attraction towards a person too much.

I don't always allow lots of people know who I like but when I do (which is rarely), I'm tellin' ya, that means that the person has been denied by my heart quite a few times but I still find myself falling in love. I hope you guys get what I said...

Let me rephrase that for better understanding.

When I go public about the person I like, this is what happened inside my head/heart:

I like him! ♡
I can't fall in love.
I don't like him.
...I like him.
♡
I don't like him.
I don't like him...
Maybe I do...?
NOOOOOO!
Okay, I do like him TnT

And that, my friends, is when I know I'm in love. Usually it'll stop at number 3.

It feels weird but I'm actually crying while typing this post but I've had a lot on my mind recently (I don't even know what and why exactly) and I feel so down these past few days and I just needed quite some alone time. I can assure you tho, that every blog post I create, I don't create for the sake of having something to post, but instead, I create it because it's what I feel. Especially this post. Everything I'll be saying here comes directly from my heart and like I said, I'm crying my heart out as I type this.

For some (unknown) reason, this week all I've been feeling is down. Like, I just really want to be alone. I feel like I have the world's weight on my shoulders and I myself couldn't figure out what's bothering me. Mood swing, perhaps?

But this very day, I met up with a friend to hang out and chat and we got to talk about my best friend. I always love talking about her because she means a lot to me. She has been by my side for almost 15 years and no one understands me better than she does. *eyes clouding up*

My friend said that I'm like the sun in our (my best friend and I) friendship. I said no, I'm more like the moon and my BFF is the sun and she lights me up. My friend said I am the moon and the sun. As we speak, I am the moon because (dear friend, correct me if my memory is wrong) I am dull, and I look like I carry so much weight on my shoulders but when I'm with my BFF, I shine so brightly like the sun. My smile is so genuine when I'm with her.

Talking to this friend of mine, at some points I almost teared up. I tried my best not to and was successful but I failed at one point: when my voice started to shake.

My friend asked me this question: What do you think your life would be like if she *knocks on wood* disappeared?

I know the answer. I would be lost. I would be lost without her. But the thought of her completely disappearing from my life is what made me crack a little bit inside. I can't ever imagine a life without her.

She means more to me than anyone else. I must have done something good in my past life to be given a best friend such as her. She is worth more than all the riches this world could give you. She is my other half.

It's true, you don't need a person of the opposite sex to call your true love. I found my true love. I found her. And mind you, there's no homo in this relationship. She is my sister, my partner in crime, my soulmate. She is "The One."

I'm happy because I myself know that I'm very difficult to understand. But her, she understands me. Even better than I do, myself. For 15 years, this girl had been by my side without any kind of motive but just to be there for me when I need her or not. We can not talk for years (we've been through that) but that won't make us drift apart. We are best friends for life. Even after death.

So, Sarrah Jane Pagaduan, my BFF. If you're reading this, I want you to know that I do love you with all my heart. You have been with me during my worst, and also during my best. I don't know why I was given someone like you. You mean so much to me, and I want the whole world to know that. I wouldn't be where I am now, and I wouldn't even be me if it wasn't for you. You make me a better person. Thank you for loving me, for caring for me, and for understanding me throughout the years. I love you.

I'm sorry if this post is long, I just needed to get this out of my chest and I also needed a good cry.

Post by Kristine Denise Bauto.

stay connected

Hello, guys! I'm back with a new text post. I've been busy with life lately, and busy with my blog giveaway plans as well so I hope you guys don't mind if blog posts and a new video on YouTube won't come in pretty often. I just have a lot on my mind right now and to be honest, right now, as I am typing this post, I feel...quite blank. I dunno. There's something I've been meaning to get out of my chest.

Well...ok. Maybe not that. lol

Err...okay, back to the topic. I guess it really just bugs me when people judge me based on how I look. Well, not judge, but they assume things because of how I look and because of how I am. Lemme explain to you the bits and pieces of how it's like to be me.

Warning: TL;DR post

Click read more to read more (duh)

Many people have asked me what it's like being an INC member. Many people have also asked me if a certain "rule" of the INC they've heard is true. I've also been put into on the spot debates when it comes to teachings in the INC, to which I have thankfully (and safe to say) won.

It's no surprise that the INC still has many haters despite the fact that we help people, usually seen in our charity events and free dental and medical exams but then again, it's a part of our journey here on Earth and we can't really please everyone.

I'm making this post as I really have a lot of thoughts in my head especially during this Centennial celebration week and even if I'm tired and stressed from the stuff I had to do since Saturday, being a part of the production team of this event was really worth it.

So here I am, sporting a face mask as my skin deserves a much-needed treatment after breaking out from the stress and fatigue. While waiting for it to finish working its magic, I'm gonna share with you guys what it's like and what it feels like to be a member of the INC.

It's 4:30AM and I'm here blogging since I couldn't really sleep and this topic is something I've been itching to blog about since Sunday night so here I am turning my thoughts into a blog post and wishing that after my thoughts are spilled into this post, I can finally sleep. Darn this stupid bipolar body clock. Lemme sleep early sometimes, will ya?

KFest was held last Sunday, July 20 2014 at the Megatrade Halls 1, 2, & 3 at SM Megamall. Special guest was M.Pire which, to be honest, is a group I'VE NEVER HEARD ABOUT but who cares, they were good-looking and okay but I think I'd enjoy it more if they brought 4Minute here. I'd prolly buy all the VIP Tickets and have the whole VIP section to myself puhahahahaha

It's Kpop Con's KPop Look Alike Contest.

I entered as IU.

click to view larger

Please help me win by clicking here then COMMENT why I should win. Comments are more important than the likes itself, and even negative or hate comments are equivalent to one point. It would be really nice if you share my entry as well. ^_^

Thank you~~~

So I would be posting something different today. BULLYING. It's actually something I'm very familiar with since I dealt with this since elementary and I have to deal with this until now.

I know on the internet, cyber bullying is quite common. Just simply calling someone ugly on the internet is already cyber bullying. Yes, it's illegal to cyber bully someone here in the Philippines but, I don't really see anyone getting in trouble for that. Hello, why make a law that they basically ignore? People still do it, because authorities just don't give a single *bleep*.